Yearly update!

Happy Holidays! I hope you all have had a great 2010. A lot has happened to me during the past year. One big thing that happened was I finished school at Baylor College of Medicine. I am now a master of Structural and Computational Biology and Molecular Biophysics. Basically, for my research project, I was using microscopes to get data on the protein that binds the hormone testosterone, and then trying to organize it so that I can analyze the data mathematically. Since I have finished school I have moved back to Salt Lake City (into a cute little apartment downtown), where I am currently a math instructor at Salt Lake Community College. This last semester I taught intermediate algebra, college algebra, and math for cosmetology and barbering students. It was kinda fun, kinda challenging, and definitely a learning experience. I just finished my grades for the semester and I have my next semester lined up where I will continue to try and learn how to teach! We’ll see how it goes…

Besides a road trip from Houston to Salt Lake (hitting San Antonio, Big Bend National Park, White Sands National Monument, Carlsbad Caverns National Park, Santa Fe, Taos, Durango, and cities and sites all along the way), I did a little bit of traveling this last year. I went to New Orleans for a bachelorette party, to San Francisco to be the maid of honor at a friend from college’s wedding, to Colorado to go to Rocky Mountain National Park and go river rafting with friends from grad school, Oklahoma City to visit a friend from college, Jackson Hole to be the support vehicle for my sister as she raced in the bike race Lotoja, and then traveling here and there and exploring around Houston.

Other happenings – I’ve been doing sports: ultimate Frisbee, softball, snowboarding (already twice this season!), and a little running and biking (the hills in Salt Lake are killer). I got a new niece, she is very cute! Found a sacred harp singing group. Found some new restaurants and went to some concerts, and then I’ve also just been hanging out with some good friends and family. All in all, a pretty good year! I hope yours was too! And I hope to hear from you about your happenings of 2010 and the big plans you have for the New Year!

Key to pictures: Texas shaped sugar cookies I made for my going away party; Old Timey photo with Dad and Sister in Durango, CO; Friends and I at Rocky Mountain National Park, CO; walking down the aisle at my friend's wedding in Sonoma, CA; wearing a sombrero from a restaurant in Houston; With friends outside another restaurant in Houston before I moved away; in my mask for my friend's birthday masquerade ball; my halloween picture as a wood fairy; with my new niece (and her mom and her sister); with my sister outside the arch of elk antlers in Jackson Hole; with my sister in the hotel in West Texas outside of Big Bend National Park; after my painting class with my creation!

My body is amazing!

So I decided the other day that my body (and everyone's) is pretty amazing. This came about after an injury. You may ask, "How does your body not working properly provide evidence to the wonder that is your body?" Well, just like the scientific technique of knock-out mice gives you information on how we work.

Wait, just a minute, don't let me lose you yet... knock-out mice are a very cool and sophisticated biological experimental technique to see what genes do what. A quick bio summary - basically in our bodies (and the bodies of mice and other animals) our DNA determines everything about us - to whether we have blue eyes or brown, to whether we have 4 legs or 2. And in each of us, every cell in our body has the same DNA. That means that the DNA in our eye cells are the same as the DNA in our stomach cells - what determines an eye cell from a stomach cell is which genes in our DNA are turned on and off. If a gene is turned on, it produces proteins which can turn on or turn off other genes or signal to other parts of the cells to work as they should work. There is a very tight regulation of this protein synthesis. When some genes are turned on when they aren't supposed to turn on or turn off when they aren't supposed to turn off, diseases often occur. A knock out mice, takes a gene that a mouse normally has, and turns it completely off. So the protein that affects the whole cell and how it functions never gets made by that gene and can therefore greatly modify how certain cells work. Hopefully, I haven't lost you yet, but to make a knock out mouse is difficult, so you have to have a good idea what the gene does before you knock it out, so you aren't wasting your time for years making the mouse. However, sometimes the knockout gene influences systems that you don't suspect. Some proteins are involved in many different pathways to make our bodies run properly, such as the one that binds testosterone (it is called androgen receptor) that can be important in sexual development and maintenance and in development of muscle mass.

Anyways, taking all that information to heart, let me get back on my original thought: my body is amazing. The other day (May 8) I went snowboarding (yes, I went snowboarding in May, and the snow was pretty good, and it was beautiful and sunny, and I could have gone back down to Salt Lake Valley and gone golfing if I had wanted). It was super fun, however, I fell because as someone was trying to pass me on a narrow bit of the trail, they lost control, fell down in front of me, not giving me room to adjust and they tripped me. It was kinda a hard fall. I bruised my thigh and my shoulder was a little strained. My shoulder was feeling pretty good, but doing a simple thing of taking off my shirt one night a few days afterward I pulled or strained a muscle so badly that I couldn't move my arm and I was in incredible pain for a few hours - yes, there were tears. I iced it and tried to go to sleep. Anyways, for the next few days, I was so shocked at how many things my shoulder did in everyday life. I knew how important it was by all the pain I felt whenever I tried to move my arm to do mundane things, like moving my fingers to type on the keyboard, lifting my arm up to rest on the desk while I typed, moving my arm in the casual way that it swings when I walk, lifting my arm above my head to undress or dress, to pull up my pants, to pull my knots tight when I tie my shoes, to almost every movement of my arm in any direction whatsoever is very highly dependent on my shoulder.. very highly dependent. I had never realized so obviously how important every little part of my body is and how much it really is amazing. I was basically my own version of a 'knock out mouse' in that I wasn't able to use a part of my body for a time being (however, with knock out mice it is permanent) and I realized how much I loved and depended on that part of my body. Considering what our bodies can do, I am pretty amazing. It kinda makes me feel guilty for not utilizing it to its full capacity. I want to know the limits of what my body can do, and then I want to work past them to reach new heights. Also, realizing how your whole body is a cohesive work, that every part is critical, then it is easier to have a better body image. In addition to realizing that all of your body works together and as a whole it is amazing, then realizing how amazing it is, you want to protect it and keep it healthy and that can be a motivation in itself to live a healthier lifestyle, which will result in a better body image.

Anyways, I just thought I would share my thoughts on my appreciation for scientific techniques and the abstract idea of being a 'knock out mouse' and helping me be thankful for an injury. I can think of how my injury helped me realize how great my body really is. I need to appreciate it and be grateful for it a little bit more :). Hope you all can learn how amazing your body is (though preferably without the injury)... just look at yourself and say, my body is amazing and sense how true that statement is :)

Today is a good day, and this is how you gauge success!

Today has been a good day so far. Ultimate frisbee does this to me. There is just something about being outside on a beautiful day, with friends, running, and playing a game. I have been thinking a lot about how to gauge success lately and I think many people think of prestige and financial success when they think of having a successful life. Though I know I do that too, there are a lot of ways to have a successful life: being happy, having a good perspective, as simple as if you 'fail' then you get up and keep trying. Days when I feel happy I feel invincible, I remember that I have good friends (all over the country, in other countries), I meet new people all the time, people seem to like me, I have so many opportunities, I am very capable, I can take on challenges and find fulfillment in them, I have a wonderful family who love me and will always help me out whenever they can, I know God loves me, and on good days I even look in the mirror and say, "Damn, I'm sexy!"

Once in a job interview many years ago I was asked, "How do you define success?" and I responded, "If you are happy doing what you are doing." I think I've thought that will happen when I find my passion and figure out a way to make it my living. I like a lot of things, and can even be passionate about some ideas and causes, but I don't think I have a "passion." This has often been troublesome for me. And I think this may have been where I got caught up when deciding if I am a success nowadays. However, I forgot there are so many reasons and different ways to be happy doing what you are doing. And having good friends and family definitely make it easier to be happy. And I am very grateful for all of you. Also I think key to finding this happiness in what you do is that you have to try your best. I am reminded about this commercial I saw years ago during the Olympics. Since it is the season of the Olympics (which I LOVE) I am often reminded of it. Basically the premise is there is this guy, and it is footage from like the 1960s, and he is in the weight lifting competition. Anyways, the narrator says, "People say that coming in 2nd is the first loser." And then the man in the commercial makes the lift, drops the weight and is jumping up and down with pure joy and happiness. And then the narrator says, "I guess nobody told that guy." I love this commercial so much. Just thinking about it now gets me a little teary eyed. But I think that if we remember to try our hardest and always try and improve ourselves, not concern ourselves about people who may be worse or better than you, but actually just continually trying your best, you can't do anything but be happy. And by my definition of success that I gave years ago in that interview, being happy doing what you are doing is the gauge of success. Anyways, those are just some thoughts I've had lately. Oh and if you haven't been watching the Olympics then you should because, so often this acknowledgment for your hard work and the pure joy of accomplishment is so evident. It is basically impossible not to love the Olympics (in my opinion anyways). Have a good day!

So it has been a long time since I have written in this blog... I keep having thoughts about what to write in it. For example, I have had lots of thoughts about how to gauge progress after you don't have real tangible goals of graduating from college, getting married, or whatever. Like when we are younger we have lots of goals that we can make and keep in short amount of time, however, as we get older the standard by which we compare whether our life is a success or not has to change. And I have been trying to think of how I want to assess my life. I know that a full blog could be written about this... but I don't think I'm going to go into it right now....

Then I've thought about sharing thoughts I've had from a number of books I've read. Like I just read The Stranger by Albert Camus. It is a very interesting book. I don't really know if I like it, but it definitely is a book you have to think about. Asses what you think about trials of law, death penalty, how you view yourself, if we have to wait until we are near to death to regain the passion that we may have lost while we were becoming adult and really live again, etc. I am actually going to have a little chat with my friend who loves this book, so I may add a post about this later... maybe.

But what really was my motivation for writing the post today was actually just to repost a blog I had written on myspace a couple years ago. I went on a date tonight and I actually had an experience that affirmed the long held belief that on a first date you shouldn't interrogate your date to know if they have long term compatibility. I think that first dates should pretty much be there to see if you really are attracted to the other person... once you start asking what your date's ideal significant other and commenting on how you fit or don't fit that... it is kinda turning into a bad date. Anyways, when I was put on the spot to explain what I wanted in a partner and which ones I would and wouldn't compromise on, I remembered this post. I unfortunately couldn't remember all the bullets explicitly, cuz I wasn't planning on being tested on my first date. I thought that if I enjoyed this person's company that each would present themselves in a natural progression.. But I went back to look at this post, and, damn, I really do want an amazing guy! Too bad I haven't met him yet. Anyways, I am going to repost it here, cuz I don't go to myspace very often, and really, even though I intrinsically know what I want, it is nice to read it so explicitly every once and awhile. Also if you know of someone... let me know ;)

1. Intellectually stimulating. This means they are smart, can challenge me, think of new conversations to talk about, trust me enough to talk about anything with me, are open to philosophical discussions, political ideas, books that we read alone and together, like to learn, like to teach me what they learn, etc. Also what can help here is that they have at least a bachelor's degree in something. It shows that they value education and work towards a goal and even though I know it isn't a foolproof way to show that someone is smart and I know people who are smart who don't have a BS or BA but it's a good, easy way to sift through the people. But the first part is more important than the second part of this bullet.
2. Same values and standards as me. This pulls in views towards the church. Lots of my values and standards stem from my association with the church, however, they aren't based solely on the church. However, I think there is a higher probability of overlap and likelihood of less contention (in our own lives and when raising children) if they are of the same religious persuasion and they place value on similar weights to the aspects that the church teaches and want the same standards in our lives. Also they need to have high standards in terms of self improvement, how we can help the environment around us, etc, and how we can always work harder to improve those aspects to a higher standard.
3. Active. I love playing. Playing sports, working out, adventuring, traveling, etc. I don't think I would be happy with someone who doesn't also want to have adventures, play sports, go snowboarding, and up for learning more new active things. Plus it will help us both be healthy. Being healthy is a good bullet, but I'll add it here. He has to like to try new foods, like flavor in his foods, be ok with not always eating meat, realize that good healthy food is tasty too - and def doesnt have to taste like a cardboard box. It can be really tasty, esp if you put any sort of effort in preparation. Which would be fun if they are also into cooking food. I would love to share cooking and having good food with them - trying out new restaurants, trying new food, looking for recipes, and eating healthily with my future ideal man.
4. Wants to be with me. And he makes me feel like he wants to be with me. He makes me feel that I'm special and that he thinks that his life has improved since he met me. Also, what goes along with being my equal, is that there will be times that I need support and he needs support, and he needs to want to be with me when I'm having a hard time, and not get so frustrated with me that he just leaves when I need him most.
5. Thinks that I am an equal. That he thinks I'm an equal intellectually, logically, strength (maybe not actual physical strength, but that I can hold my own, - even physically, and that I'm a strong individual in general), etc. And that he is ok that I will be better than him in some things, just like I will try and be ok that he is better than me in some things.
   
6. Will be a good father. He has to love kids. He has to be good with my nieces and nephews, for example. He has to know how much I love kids and want to be an integral part of our children's lives. Playing with them, encouraging them, will teach them to be good members of society, etc. Needs to know that family is important, and that our future family will probably be the most important thing in my life, and I'd expect him to share that opinion.
7. Will judge people on the individual traits instead of their group stereotypes. Basically this is my 'he can't be homophobic, racist, sexist, etc' and if he does have some prejudices concerning these groups, that he is at least as good of a person to take each individual he meets and lets them supersede the stereotypes. And I think that living your life based on your prejudices (which we all have) and not letting individuals speak for themselves, is a very bad way to live your life, and not something I ever want to teach my kids. You should love the person for who they are, and not treat them differently when you find something out about them that you may not like.
   
8. I am physically attracted to him. I mean most people can be 'growers', you know the type that you might not find drop dead gorgeous, but as you get to know them, and they are the person you want to be with, their looks grow on you and you think they are so sexy! But I have to be physically attracted to him, and him to me. And they have to be up for sexual experimentation and sex games and sex books etc. Because I am all up for making it 'playing' instead of always just sex or whatever. And if they are sorta a sex prude, then I don't think I'd be happy with him long term.
   
9. He has to like to laugh. He has to like funny movies, he has to like to be silly, he has to like my lame-o jokes, he has to just be a cheery person and like to laugh, he can't be serious all the time.
   

Anyways, that is the list that I made a few years ago, I can't really see any major changes or additions to that list.. Like halfways through this post I thought, "What am I doing opening myself up to such vulnerability on an online media," but I think I'm going to continue on with posting it, so enjoy this little window to my soul - while it lasts anyways ;). And maybe I will post another blog entry before 5 months pass....